Rantom III

Hello, everyone...I didnt realize time is passing so fast that it has been 6 months since i entered an art college. And my last journal entry was like four months ago. I didnt realize that I've been drawing nonstop for half a year already. And I never realized my art is slowly improving to another stage, didnt realize I've learnt so much about what I dont know previously. Throughout these 6 months, I've faced with so many life problems in the new place. And today, I'll slowly type them out in this boring journal, gotta let them all out. Before that, please, forgive my poor and broken english.

Firstly...the bicycle story. Yeap, I got myself a cute tiny foldable bike. I rode it to college everyday, rode it to cafe, to exercise, to show off my god damn adorable bike. Now this bike had really do me good...I'm not that tired anymore as I took only 5-10 minutes goin to college, unlike a freakin 20 minutes of walk last time. However...HOWEVER. there's always, always a bad side of a good side. Its pretty funny actually, when people just wont let me to get into the god damn lift. The place I live in has a total of 3 lift in service...and when one of them broke down (which happens aalll the time), it'll be a nightmare for me. There'll be a whole lots of freakin assholes waiting downstairs, who wont freakin let anyone with bike, trolley, baby car, trucks, biscuits, and mentos to get into the god damn lift. And poor poor me, have to wait and wait and wait for about an hour to get the chance to get in. There's even one time, when I was waiting like a well-behaved nerd with my bike, I was scolded by a brainless indian as he think that i wanna get into the lift in the crowd. You guys noe what he said? let me tell you...he said "hey boy, you get out of here man, dont you see there's a big crowd here wanna get in? You got a bike man, let the others get in!". I was like, wtf...I've been waiting for a few rounds already, lettin the others to get in...and he just came and scold me while he get in the lift himself? I wish that I can just replied FUCK YOU right away...but i did not, because i got brain, as doing that is just the same as suicide. You might wanna ask...why dont just take the stairs? Yes, why not? Because I live on the freakin highest floor in the apartment. I tried it once actually...carrying a 12kilogram bicycle up to a freakin 17th floor. The consequences? Both of my arms and my shoulders lost all the energy on the next morning...I cant even hold a god damn pencil. I was really really mad and sad after that day...I was being bullied But I noe this is life...so i gotta bear with it. But in order to let myself feel better, I lay a god damn powerful curse on that guy...8D Though, i wanna thank my girlfriend because she's the one who know all my problems and support me when i'm down Now when one of the lift broke down, the only thing i can do is just cycle around for a few rounds and wait for the crowd to clear...hey i get smarter XD

Next is friendship problem. Well not really a big problem, just probably what i felt. I've met so many people in the college, and I'm trying to find a few friends who are interested in digital painting like i did. Sadly, its hard to find...tho I still managed to meet a few. So, I tried my best to help them...i share what i noe so that there's someone who can share the same interest as i am. I'm really trying to help...but one of my friend seriously disappoint me. At first, when i knew that he wanna buy a graphic tablet, I was like..cool, i got another friend who love digital paintings now. And hence, i guide him, teach him, help him on his problems, told him about learning from masters, introduce him to great artists. I thought he got the passion to learn, but I was wrong...he is not willing to sacrifice his time to learn, to improve. He just wont do any extra work. His ego his high...he dont respect me, he dont appreciate my help. He may not realize, but his one sentence is enough to let me down. I kept it to myself, I said okay, if thats what he want, then he wont get any of my help after this. I still treat him as a good friend, but when it comes to an artist's perspective, no I dont respect him at all. The help that i gave is just a waste on an artist like him...I dont know how far he will get if he keeps on with such attitude, really hope he will change...

Anyway, I'm joining alot of contests recently if you notice...I wont wanna let my skills rust when all the assignments I've been doing are traditionals, which will bored me to death after a while! So...I'll be painting for contests late at nite after completing my assignments. Strange enough, I just dont feel tired when I paint! Maybe because its something i love to do...I dont care if i win anything, because it is worth it when i learnt new stuffs in every paintings i did. The result might sometimes be bad, but at least I learnt why it is bad...I'll just treat them as practices, which I believe, will slowly make me improve. I'm very lucky to have a few great artists as friends, they always help me to improve, and i appreciate it alot. I really did...so i'll try my best to make my art better, to satisfy everyone, to satisfy myself.

Btw, the weather. God, the weather nowadays are really hot! I cant sleep well at nite when there's just fan...I can even feel the heat on my bed, I sweat! and thus...i always ended up watching a movie with aircond before bed, and the aircond will just slowly raise the earth temperature....noo...how i wish every artwork that i create can decrease the heat!

Till da next time, take care!

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